OMG I HAVE A BABY!!

HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!?!

Okay, so I know how it happened, the birds and the bees (or the lack on contraception) and all that, but I've just realized I'm a parent!

It might be a bit late... You might think I'm incredibly slow. But I'm actually really stunned right now.

My epiphany happened the other morning when BB flatly refused to nap until he was so overtired he just wanted to scream. So I took him out in his pram... In my pajamas. I really don't care, I just wanted BB to sleep. And I saw this heavily pregnant woman waddling along, and I thought 'wow, she looks beautiful'. And it hit me, I had a big bump like that. I completely lost the ability to walk without looking like I had a watermelon between my legs. I actually gave birth. I have a baby, who is going to crawl, and walk, and talk, and go to nursery and school and college and university and get a job. Somebody who is entirely dependant on me, and loves me and is my entire world!

And although between nappy changes and feeds and playtime and the lack of sleep, it seems like I've been doing this forever and I don't actually remember being pregnant all that much. I wish I'd treasured it, instead of wishing it was over and the baby was here. I wish I'd enjoyed the sleep and the lazy days in bed and feeling my baby roll over in my tummy.

And it made me realize....

I'M SOOOO BROODY!

Now every bump I see sets off this uncontrollable urge to breed. I want it all again, I want to cry at my scans and pick out cute baby things that are completely pointless and wonder which day is going to be 'the day'.

Apparently I forget, for that moment, the heartburn, piles, stretchmarks, small bladder, and having to push a huge baby out of a stupidly small orifice.

Wishing DB would let her have another one
xxx