So I guess I'm just unlucky.

I heard of people who stopped bleeding two weeks after their birth and naturally assumed that would be me.

Nope. Six weeks.

I was told lovely stories about people not having a period until they stopped breastfeeding.

Nope. Two days after pp bleeding stopped I had one.

Then, to top that off, four days after my period stopped... I start bleeding again. What the hell is going on? How many packs of Always am I going to have to use? I WANT TO WEAR NORMAL PANTS AGAIN!!! I DON'T WANT TO WEAR A PAD ANYMORE!!!!!

And just when I was about to give up and cry, I looked down at my gorgeous baby, and got this in return:




Isn't he just beautiful?

Wasting time watching my little one nap
xxx

Being A New Mummy

My body's ability to irritate me surprises me no end. I bled for six weeks post-partum, which in my eyes is a ridiculous amount of time and I should have taken out stock shares in Always. So I had my first bath with Baby Bear, and absolutely loved it. He snuggled into me and smiled whilst splashing about. I awoke this morning with a back ache.
Not surprising, I walked ridiculous amounts yesterday.
Then had a crampy tummy this morning.
Okay, maybe that chicken did look a bit suspect last night.
It took me hours to realize it was menstrual cramps. Daddy Bear was a bit confused - he forgets it was around this time last year when I had my last period, I'm out of practice!!

It does explain why I keep crying when Baby Bear does I guess...
And the two empty tubs of Ben & Jerry's Coconutterly Fair...

I knew it would happen eventually, but I had TWO BLOODY DAYS OF FREEDOM!!
Two glorious days without a pad, and it came back. I hate my body sometimes. Not only do I have a belly that looks like a deflated balloon, boobies that are so engorged they are bigger than my head and greasy hair, I have a uterus with no consideration for my feelings.

On another note, after days of feeding on demand whilst Baby Bear had a growth spurt, he seems to have settled down now. I put him back on the feeding routine in the Gina Ford book - this I like, it was the nap times I couldn't get on with, and although he fights sleep it's nowhere near as bad and it's easier on both of us, thank god. I've reduced the amount he sleeps in the day, but he's still always fairly sleepy in the day and very grumpy if I keep him awake too long so I do let him sleep when he needs it.

So although I'm tired, and my belly hurts, I still love being a mummy. Every days is like trial and error, if one thing doesn't work for us I try not to punish myself, and adjust our routine accordingly. Eventually I'll find something that works for us both, and maybe one day in the not so distant future I'll get more than three hours at a time!

Waiting to give Baby Bear his dreamfeed before I go to bed myself!
xxx